Poetry

Drowning blue weave mystery

Deep dark brown tell lies

Hazel are meant to hurt you

And green can hypnotize

Red is flaming freedom

Brown is bound by pride 

Black is strong as ever

And blonde is dead inside

Pale ivory is sickly

Tanned is venomous

Red and burnt is tiring

And brown can be dangerous

Short and soft, but sad

Or tall and full of bite 

Bone thin anorexic,

Or heavyset with spite

All these things can make us

Along with so much  else

The outside can tell everything

Or perhaps can mask things better than the mind

It's all inside the person you choose

Thad what I've come to find.

Sunlight

The weather today
Seems to reflect my mind
Passing and fading
In clouded shades of gray

And every once
In a long while
There is a sliver of sunlight
And that
That is enough
To make the pain go away.

Poetry

It's slipping, it's slipping
Farther every day
Our friendship, our friendship
Is falling fast away

You won't reply,
You won't try
You won't call,
But you'll watch me fall

I don't matter
Why should you care?
I never mattered
When I was there

I tried to warn you
Tried to help
Now I'll watch you
Fall into hell

Don't you try 
Crawling back
I won't be here,
I stay on track

You jumped off the train
But I'm not stopping and waiting
You're so indecisive,
I won't waste time debating

Leaving you now,
Sit there in the dust
I hope you think twice
Next time you discard trust.

Poetry

Pumpkins sprouting up,
Leaves are falling down
Chills are in the air,
Fall has come around.

Orange, red and yellow
With brown splashes here and there
Crunching leaves in every step
With more carried by air

Costumes and face paint
Trick or treat all night
Some are cute and pretty,
While others are a fright

Chilled apple cider
And pies baking away
Just another reason
To love fall as it is today.

Poetry

Done with your words
And all the crap that you say
Because a month worth of feelings
For you lasts a day

You throw words around
Thinking they mean nothing
But what's nothing to you
To another could be something

I'm not saying hold back
Or don't speak your mind...
I just mean think before saying
So that you still can be kind.

Poetry

A month, a year
You think I care?
Ever leaving this prison
At all is rare

So I don't go out
I don't really mind
In the end all I do
Is stay inside

Take away social
You just took away hell
Now I can stay here
Locked inside my shell

Take away friends
But take away stress
Now maybe I can fix my brain...
It's sort of a mess.

Poetry

Oh my god
I just did it again
Had to be a witch
And lost a friend

I really feel sorry
But I know that I'm not
Our friendship decaying
Slowly falling to rot

It started with this
Our poor choices 
The relationships
That managed to silence our voices

Now I've removed you
Pushed you far, far away
Even though I honestly
Would rather you stay

But you have her now
My use has worn out
All I seem to be
Is the cause of your doubt

I won't deny 
That you mean a lot
But when I try to be in your life
I'm denied a spot

You can't take advice
You try to shove me too
Because apparently
What I say's never true

Even though many times
I've been oh so correct
You think my only purpose
Is to hurt and infect

Well I'm hurting alright
And I'm infected with you
Because I thought you'd be here
To turn my grey skies blue

But you run in fear
From the beast in my mind
Because you can't seem to handle

What you've managed to find.

Poetry

I don't want your petty words
The apologies that only burn
The regrets you don't deserve
When the hell will you ever learn?

I don't care if you messed up
That's your mistake
You now have to live with it
Just don't fall for someone fake

I wish what's best
This is a test
My mind's at rest
My thoughts, compressed

I don't need people
To survive on my own
You need to latch,
Can't be alone

Good luck in life
Good luck in all...
I hope someone catches you
Should you fall.

Poetry

There is happy,
Or there is sad
There is good,
Or there is bad.

I live in a world
Of black and white
No intermission
Between day and night

No color grey
To intervene
For me,
There is no in between

I can smile 
Or I can frown
Be so high
Or so put down

But never calm
No, never grey
This is my life
From day to day.

Poetry

Choose wisely
For you can't choose again
Will you discard me
Or keep me as your friend?

Don't leave me hanging
Holding on by just a thread
I'd rather drop on the rocks below
Than slowly watch our friendship go dead

I've tried and tried
But you won't reply
So when I leave,
Don't be the one to cry

A lack of effort
And communication
All this has become
Is a form of frustration

It's reached the point
Where I don't think you care
When I'm without you,
It's like walking on air

So goodbye, goodbye
Please walk away
So I'm not the one
With the guilt and the blame.

Poetry

How can we trust beauty

If it constantly lies?

How much will it take

For the world to realize?

When salt looks like sugar

But is the opposite of sweet

Can we expect pretty faces

To be the same kind of treat?

Makeup heals blemishes,

A smile hides the pain

But when a storm hits,

Do we dance in the rain?

When the lighting strikes down,

Do we choose to accept it?

Or do we run in fear,

Abuse and reject it

When something looks soft

But then starts to hurt

Do we leap away,

Abandon ship and desert?

Light the match

Catch the fuse

Explode into nothing

How can we refuse.

Poetry

I can see flames

They're burning us down

But I'm gonna stand here

Til we're ashes on the ground 

I can see the fire

Smoking in the distance

Still I'm gonna stick around

Put up my resistance

I won't accept the truth

Because I can see the best in you

But the fire pulls you in

Deeper and deeper into sin

Maybe I can't save you

Maybe I should jump out too

Maybe I was wrong

Maybe these feelings weren't true

But then why can't I escape the blaze

Lost in this craze

Your heart is a maze

And I'm stuck in a daze

You began to burn me

But I still stayed around

Because I needed to watch

All I once loved burn down.

Poetry

I don't care

If no one likes you 

Because they don't have to

I do

I don't care if they start rumors

They don't have to like you

I do

I don't care if they say you're bad

That we can't ever last

I like you, I truly do

I don't care about your past.

Poetry

For one quick moment

She turns away

And you can almost hear

What she's aching to say

But she keeps it inside

Just like everything else

Trying to deal with her hurt

All by herself

Because she wants to be brave

And she wants to be strong

But by hiding away

She has been all along.

Poetry

The Broken Faucet

Once you were new, 

Shiny without a flaw,

You had no problems,

No complications, 

Til the long years took their draw,

I tried to make you warm, 

But you just turned far colder,

The forcefulness within you,

Is now a simple dribble.

Poetry

I'm here
Don't think I walked away
I know your hope is drained
But I won't abandon you today

I took an oath
To be your friend
Stand through the storm
Until the end

Regardless of life
And it's rough unsteady course
I know that it'll carry me
Back to my starting source

The home of all my happiness
And memories come and gone
I've followed my mind for oh so long
But this time, I don't think my heart is wrong.

Poetry

no don't try
to tell me about my past
i forgot it for a reason
didn't want that shit to last

i dont want to
see the look on her face
the moments after
i was brought into the human race

i don't wanna hear her voice
or be reminded of her eyes
the only representation
is that of all the lies

the lies that formed my childhood
ripped away my youth
to go back to that hell
would be so uncouth

i erased it from my mind
i don't wanna rewind
i killed my past
maybe i move too fast

but ah well its gone
and it ain't coming back
i made sure of that
i'm gonna stay on track

Poetry

You had a chance

He gave you many

But you'd rather complain

And not take any

Well he gave me one

And now we're together

But NOW you put up a fuss

When it won't be forever

You feel so betrayed

You've been stabbed in the back

So now you tell lies

To turn his heart black

Luckily he saw through

Saw the bull you almost pulled

You're at the end of the road

But I'm just getting refueled

Stay out of my life

And keep out of my business

You had your chance...

But now you're just useless.

Poetry

Bare your teeth,

So pearly white

Let that false smile

Light up the night

Paint your lips

A deep blood red

So they won't look

So pale and dead

Force that curve

Right on your face

Tie your hair

With silk and lace

It doesn't matter

If you're cheerful

KEEP ON SMILING

Even though you're tearful

Put aside the pain for now

Don't you let those tears rain down

Smile! Smile! Until the end

They'll never know

It's all pretend.

Poetry

Don't say "what"
Let me break this down now
Cuz if you say "explain tomorrow"
Then I won't know how

You don't care that I exist
I feel our friendship is a lie
Because you say you want to help
But would leave me there to die

Just a pawn and you're the player
Use me up and throw me out
Like everybody else
You swore to God you cared about

Saying that you're so alone
When you don't know the meaning of the word
I honestly doubt you know abandonment
Or the betrayal of the world

You don't care that I have issues
Or that I've almost died
Cuz if I'm gone there are others
You can tear apart inside

You don't care about feelings
Or the ones I have for you
You just jump to conclusions
And think what you've heard is true

If a gun was to your head
I'd replace it with mine
But you wouldn't do the same
If you could walk away fine

Maybe I'm an idiot
Who crossed too many a sea
Trying to save someone
Who wouldn't jump a puddle for me.

Poetry

Starting as a seed
Carried and dropped along the way
The pine tree has no choice
In where it has to stay.

Slowly moving forward,
Kept back by the seasons
Yet it never loses life
For a multitude of reasons

Growing stronger,
Growing tall
Something big
From something small

Stories on bark
Told in the center
Only to be seen
When it's chopped down forever

Sometimes you can't see
What goes on beneath the skin
And chopping down walls
Is the way to within

But careful what walls
That you choose to rip away
Because if you rip up the roots
It'll no longer stay.

Poetry

Sometimes life gets me to wonder
What's the meaning for carrying on?
Is there a reason we all are here,
or is life just a never ending song?

I look around me and see the sun
The clouds, so fluffy and white
The trees that stand so tall,
And the stars that shine at night

So perhaps beauty is the meaning
But no, that couldn't be
Because if that were the case,
There wouldn't be so much bad to see

I laugh at funny jokes
And see the smile on my friends' face
And so I think that happiness
Is the meaning of the human race

But no, that can't be it...
For depression still exists
Standing in the pathway
To pure and utter bliss

So what is life's meaning?
There has to be one
We can't just live for nothing...
That wouldn't be fun

Nor would it be fair
There has to be a purpose
Some reason to keep breathing
Some reason to preserve us.