Poetry

You swore you'd be there

Swore our friendship was true

But I guess the word "always"

Means nothing to you

You watched our bond

Go up in flames

Because all I am to you

Is a series of games

Funny how your perspective changed

Just within one day

I think you'd best be careful

Next time, think before you say

Now everything's in ruins

Tears are running down my face

I tried and tried to hold on

I'm an image of disgrace

So go ahead and walk away

You know deep down that you should stay

But I'll watch you look the other way

Because in the end, I have no say

Nothing I do can change this

Nothing I say can change this.

Poetry

White walls, white tile
Little girl with a crazy smile
Names all locked up in a file
This transition takes awhile

Get used to the jacket
With buckles and locks
Get used to counting sheep
And watching clocks

The padded walls
And twice-locked doors
Will keep you here
Forevermore

Don't try to escape
Or run away
You're stuck here now
You have to stay

You have no choice
You're all strapped down
Now you live your life
In a hospital gown

Wrongful accusations fly
Condemned to be insane and die
No one even wants to try
And save you, yet you don't wonder why

Accept your fate
You won't survive
You'll never make it
Out alive.

Poetry

Why can't you tell me
Why can't you be true
Do you think that I'll leave
Or stop caring for you?

I'll bet that your temper
Was what got in your way
And you think if you tell me,
There'll be no more to say

But I don't abandon 
For reasons like that
I'll stick through it all
I'm not just some rat

So please open up to me
Let me inside
Show me where all
Of your demons hide

I'll fight them all for you
But you won't let me in
You'll find if you do,
That our fun can begin.

Poetry

We aren't the same

We never will be

You have different morals

And meanings than me

No we cannot agree

You won't stay out of my life

You don't like him,

So you cut him away with a knife

Scared to lose me

When I say you won't

You don't believe it

So you persist even when I say "don't"

Control me, control me

Like a puppet on strings

The master will find

That this bird has wings

Fly away

Far from here

You lost me now

Don't you see that dear?

It's never them

It's always you

Now look away

You know it's true

Poetry

The clouds in my mind

Have opened right up

Releasing the tears

That will fill my cup

The storm in my mind

Lets the thunder ring on

It pulses like a drum

To a depressing song

The lightning falls down

It smashes the ground

My mind is a wreck

It lies shattered around

I try to recoop

I try to survive

But the storm did its damage

And I'm barely alive

So I'll crawl my way back

To the place that I know

My wreck of a mind

That I like to call home.

Poetry

Paint on a mile
Hope for the best
Wear your mask,
Forget the rest

Keep it bottled
Hold it in
Stay behind
That painful grin

Ever present
But at night its fades
As she breaks into pieces
And closes her shades

Shuts out the world
And turns to her tears
She's young and yet
These are her toughest years

Overworked for no good reasons
Emotions changing like the seasons
Deep blue eyes that cry too often
And still your heart will not soften

What will it take
For the world to understand
That life is only
When you hold no one's hand.

Poetry

My tears fall down like rain from the sky
I sit in my room and I ask God why
Why did you take her? Why didn't she stay?
Why couldn't you make her sickness go away
Miracles are talked about every day
But none ever occur though I pray and I pray
Losing faith and slipping down the hole
I'm starting to wonder if I even have a soul
What's left of mine has faded all to black
Taken over by depression and I can't turn back
Running, running from the monster in my mind
Or am I just running from the answers that I can't seem to find?

Poetry

Fool yourself
Hide behind illusion
So you don't feel alone
Caught up in this confusion

Tell yourself you're ok
That everything will heal
But is this just one more excuse
To fool yourself into thinking you can feel?

Don't cloak yourself in lies
Don't try to hide from me
Because if you don't know yet
The truth is all that I can see

So please come clean
Don't make a mess
Don't lie to me,
It'll only cause stress

Stress is un-needed
Depressing and dumb
And at this point
I just want to have fun

So look up to the sky
Smile and be free
And don't ever again
Lie to me.

Poetry

I hope you taste the sarcasm
That bites through every sentence
So can you please, drop to your knees
And ask for your repentance?

What you did was hateful
Cruel, distasteful, mean
Yet when I snap back and hurt you
I'm the one who's obscene.

I won't stand around and take damage
Or let you shove me down
It's taken me long enough
To finally come around.

Now I'm done with all your crap
I won't take it anymore
All our fights ever can do
Is leave my mind feeling sore.

So goodbye
Walk away
I don't need
Stress today

If you've nothing to say
Then go, have a good day.

Poetry

I wonder what it's like
To not have any fear
To not ever be sad
To never shed a tear

I wonder what it's like
To not shake inside
To not be silent in public
To not have to hide

I wonder what it's like
To not check under the bed
To not be afraid of the things
That are inside of your head

I wonder what it's like
To talk without being scared
Of messing up your words
Or laughing with teeth bared

I wonder what it's like
But I may never know
Because I'm messed up inside
Though I try not to show.

Poetry

Wrote this last night but whatever it's still going up

My Friends
You talk about my friends
As if you know who they are
But do you know their pasts?
Or how badly they're scarred?

You talk about my friends
But what you say is wrong
Walk a mile in their shoes,
Then say they aren't strong

You talk about my friends
And say they're the same
Same hell, different demons
Different levels of pain

You talk about my friends
Degrade them in every way
But you really don't know
What they deal with each day

So please don't talk about my friends
You don't know them at all
But I'll let you know one thing:
I'll always catch them if they fall.

Poetry

How can something so small
Be a part of something so big
Like grains of sand to a beach,
Like a tree to a twig
Like a drop in the ocean
Like a cloud in the sky
Like a star in the universe
Like the reason why
Like a microscopic spec
That turns into a mountain
A strand of DNA
That represents a generation
A simple breath of air
That represents life
Every ounce of metal 
That goes into a knife
Every petal on a flower
Each thorn on a rose
Each road that is paved
To where nobody knows
A small piece of paper
With feelings wrote down
Is a whisper of emotion
Without any sound
Learn to enjoy
These small simple facts
They may save you suffering
And help you relax.

Poetry

My dreams can save me
My dreams can pull me away
From this horrible twisting reality
That is begging me to stay
The nightmare tries to pull me in
And show me all is wrong
I know that I'll be fine,
Just need to sing my happy song
Focus on the positive,
Get rid of all that's sad
Can't let it infect my mind,
For that would just be bad
Focus on the positive,
Be happy all your life
Block out all the negative,
Block out all the strife.

Poetry

So what
Will I never fit in
Yeah I'm not a girly girl,
Is that such a sin?
Yes I appreciate nature
And I don't mind getting dirty
I'm not really the type
That's gonna be real flirty
I don't believe in gossip,
Or that backstab crap
I'm here for my friends,
If they get caught in a trap
The trap being you,
With your snare for a tongue
Pull 'em in, lock 'em down,
Go down another rung.

poetry

You tell me that it's dangerous
That I need to let it go
But just because you're biased
Doesn't mean I am, you know
Perhaps there's something else here
That only I can see
And maybe you should chill out
And just let me be me
And if you're right then I'll admit
And you can say you're right
But until I see it for myself,
I'll walk with blinded sight
Don't try to force opinion,
It won't help anything
Relax, it's just a few days...
We're not bonded with a ring
You take this bull way too far
And so so seriously
Let me have a bit of fun...
Please just leave me be.

Poetry

Burning up in my own regrets

Thinking of all the things I should have said

Everything is clogging up,

And all my thoughts swim round n' round my head

Maybe if I clear my mind,

Or tell my brain to just unwind

Everything in my head,

Will go away

But is that what I want..?

Or is it what I think I need?

Do I want no memories,

Or is it just out of greed

Blocking out all negatives

Til' slowly, nothing's left

I can't see why there's a reason to try

If all these thoughts do is make me cry

Why not leave them far behind?

And remember

Only

The happy.

Poetry

So you think I'm gonna let you back in
Just because you say you're sorry and grin
Do you think I'm that stupid
To forgive you after what you did
You threw me away after all that I'd done
Left me there, the broken one
All my trust in you is trash,
You let our plane of friendship crash
Upon the shore of desolation
I was but a useful decoration
You were never there for me,
I was something you could come and see
I was the only one to hear
It didn't matter, far or near
But now I've learned to live without you
And I don't miss you... that's the truth.

Poetry

Let the stress pour out
Don't let emotions drag you down
Get rid of all the negatives
Don't cry, don't make a sound
Try to smile
Even if it's forced
If you're depressed,
It could be your last resort
Sometimes all we need
Is that last little push
To get us to laugh,
Just an amusing rush
Less muscles to smile
Than it takes to frown
Just remember this,
Should you ever get down
We all have a purpose
We all have will to live
We all are here on Earth,
Because we have something to give
Just never forget this,
I promise it's okay
You'll get out of this ditch
Somehow, some way.

Poetry

Let's run away together,
Get lost between the trees
Run around the world,
And cross the widest seas
We'll sail so far away
To our lonely retreat
An island in the ocean,
A room with a seat
The lock on the door,
Keeps everything in
Hidden from grace,
But protected from sin.

Poetry

We were once a large ship,

That held strong on stormy seas,

However, all that's left now

Is the wreck of what used to be

The wreckage floating gently,

As the waves bob up and down

Everything caught in a whirlpool,

Swirling gently round and round

Crashing hard on rocky beaches,

Sand flying everywhere

The wood is crashing, rotting deep,

All that is left is despair

No amount of storming

Can clear this beach of sadness

The more storms that hit the beach,

It deepens the descent into madness.

Poetry

Roses have thorns,
And sugar can kill
Everything can hurt you,
And even the nicest things will
Some animals poison you,
And the ones that don't bite
The world seems to be filled
With things that go bump in the night
The sunshine gives cancer,
And cool water makes you drown
All these beautiful things
Can drag you straight down
But why be depressing?
Why focus on this?
There's still beauty to be seen,
But too often it's missed
It all depends on perspective,
What's in your mind's eye
For lovely things can be seen
If you give it a try.