Poetry

Don't feel bad

It's not your fault

It's mine for falling and failing

Failing to wake up and realize

Failing to pull myself out of wonderland in time

Don't take pity

I really don't deserve it

Nor do I want it

the last thing I need is a fuss

Or for someone to be curious

Don't say what you don't mean

Don't feed me lies, just come clean

"Just Sayin' "

Today, I hear a lot of my friends making snide remarks, and finishing their insult by saying "Just saying" as if THAT makes anything better. A good example is: "That's a really stupid hobby and only nerds do that. Just sayin'!" Adding "just saying" to the end of something doesn't make anything better or make you any better of a person- if anything, you look even more like a jerk because when you say it, it often comes out in a whine and makes you sound overly dramatic.

My Dad hates this phrase, if you can't tell from how I'm writing. While he puts up with it while I am around my friends, afterwards he spouts off about it and cracks a lot of jokes, often making remarks ending in "just saying" followed by a stream of un-repeatable curses.

I have to go to karate now, so I'll keep this post nice and short.

Maddie

Poetry

Second day in a row, but I felt like it.

Choose

Choose
It's funny how one word
Holds so much power
Choose
As if your life depends on it
As if your about to jump from a tower
Choose
Find something to put your heart into
Find something you love and want to stick with forever
Choose
But what if I don't want to?
Does that mean I'll find peace never?
Choose
Choose good or evil...
Choose your side, and stay with it.

Poetry

Close the Door

Close the door
Walk away
Another smile
Another day
Close the door
Don't turn around
Shut your lips
Don't make a sound
Close the door
And lock it tight
Don't come back
Leave with the night

Dad's Grades

Today, my grandma and I were unpacking some boxes from when she moved, and we found some old report cards! Being homeschooled, I don't get "grades" from school, but I was still interested in my Dad's grades to see how he did when he was my age. A's, B's, the OCCASIONAL B-... it amused me to see things from the past. I don't know. I just wanted to put up a short paragraph about that, I find it interesting.

Other than cleaning, I am in the process of writing a paper  on the book "I am David". It is a book that has won many awards, and was written in 1963 about a young boy named David who was raised in a concentration camp until the age of 12 and then escapes. I am almost done with it, and it will be published on The Book Stack tomorrow. I think I've said this before, but I'm not allowed to publish school projects on here anymore, so I'll leave a link to the other blog below.

www.thebookstak.blogspot.com

Maddie

Poetry

Clarity

I have found a point of clarity
I've reached the place of no return
Trying not to feel the pain
Of reality's sweet burn
Sometimes to forget
you have to pay a price
bittersweet ignorance
and a heart as cold as ice
The good is washed out with the bad
as there is no way to keep it
aside from all the bad memories,
which cling to my brain like magnets.

Get Over It

Over the past two years, I have come to realize something- I can't stay mad at people for very long! I may get ticked off about something initially and act like a butt about it, but I get over things usually within a matter of 30 minutes. The longest I have ever been able to hold a grudge was 12 hours... and even then, it wasn't very strong. In life, we are given a short amount of time, even though it is undetermined- if you think about how long humans have been living, the average lifespan of 75-80 years we are given is not very long. In that time, we grow up, make friends, fall in love, get married and start families, and then watch them have their families... and then we die. But throughout life, we can have one of two outlooks: the sour outlook, or the pessimistic outlook, OR the happy view on life, or the optimistic view.

I try to be realistic... but not to the point that I sour everyone's mood along with my own. Yes, I have days where I can be extremely grumpy, but that happens to everyone. I know that life is often taken for granted... simple things that we do every day are taken for granted, even something so simple as hugging someone can and will be missed if that person gets taken away and you can't hug them anymore. Knowing this, I try to find happiness in everything and everyone- find the silver lining in every grey cloud. Some days, it can be hard because the world feels like it is caving in around you... but you just have to stay strong and stand up through everything. Smile! Smiling in and of itself sends chemicals to the brain that tell it to be happier, so doing that alone will not only improve your looks but improve how you feel.

In the end, life is short and we are given the choice to be moping and sad, or happy and joyful. I try to be joyful- what do you choose?

Maddie