Dreams

This post is inspired by a conversation my Dad and I had a few weeks ago about dreams. We were talking about the settings of our dreams- his usually take place in an urban setting, while mine are often set in shopping centers or similar indoor centers. We came up with the theory that dreams are based off of where we've spent a lot of time previously. My Dad was a messenger in New York when he was about my age, and he remembers fearing some of the streets. To a child, they are long, looming and filthy, and not pleasant at all. Meanwhile, I was taken out shopping a lot as a little girl and so most of my dreams are in malls or department stores.

Fun fact: I've never once in my whole life had a good dream. All my dreams are either scary, weird, or just plain confusing; not happy at all. They also all recurr OR take place in the same 4 settings. I almost always lucid dream, and upon waking up can recognize where I was in the dream and remember being there before in a different dream. Inside the dream, I can identify that I've been in that place before and actually know my way around the dream setting quite well. It's odd, but at the same time fun when you know where you are and have the free will to go wherever you want.

However, in each dream there are miniscule changes. Sometimes the change is small, like the outfit someone is wearing or the placement of an object. In others, the mood in the landscape in and of itself changes- a place that was once happy can go to being dark and scary in a matter of minutes. In a recent dream of mine, I was in a setting I knew well. I was walking around it, but then I noticed things were not normal because an area that had been well lit in my last dream was now darkened and cluttered, making it hard to manuever through. As I walked through the mess, I had the feeling I was being watched and chased- not a pleasant feeling when you can't move very fast.

What's the weirdest dream you've ever had?

Maddie

Poetry... but not by me.

While I love writing my own poetry, I also enjoy reading poetry from other people. Recently, I've been looking up twists on the "Roses are red, violets are blue"  poem. I found one that I really liked and since I've written a lot today, I wanted to just share this poem with you. I don't know who wrote it, and even though it's slightly depressing I still like it.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

Sugar is sweet,

And perhaps so are you.

But the roses have wilted,

The violets are dead,

The sugar bowl's empty,

And your wrists are stained red.

The sun isn't shining,

The sky isn't clear,

There's no silver lining 'cause you're no longer here.

Rain keeps on pouring,

There's no end in sight,

You're lying there frozen

So far from the light

Your beauty's unreal,

Your smile, the sun

But time can't be turned nor your actions undone.

The words that you wrote that only I read,

"I love you so much, please don't cry when I'm dead",

A bond that we formed, 

A love that ran deep,

A pain that we shared,

A friend I could keep,

I wanted to hold you

Wipe the tears from your eyes,

Been there the moment you said your goodbyes,

I want to forget but most times I don't

I want to let go,

But I know that I won't

Tears on my face,

Memories burned in my head,

The roses have wilted…

The violets are dead.

Poetry

Don't tell me you're my friend
If you won't stand by me in the end
Don't say that you'll be there
If it's a promise light as air
Don't act so innocent
Your fakeness, I've come to resent
Smiling for the show
A trick of yours I've come to know
Learning all their secrets well,
So when you need to, you can tell
Stab them in the back so hard,
That's your hidden playing card
But I have seen your evil way
Your little game, I will not play
I pass my turn, I give up my place
I choose to lose this awful race.

Write What You Think About

I always get told to write what I think about on any given day... but most of the time, I can't! For starters, my mind is ALLLL over the place so one thought breaks off into many thoughts jumbled together in a matter of seconds. I can't track all my thoughts, so they usually all dissapear into nothingness before I can keep them pinned down. I also have trouble KNOWING what I am thinking, if that makes any sense. I think so much and since (as I mentioned previously) I can't keep track of one thought in general to write about. If I DID write about exactly what was on my mind... this blog would be a mess because it would look something like this:

That hair tie looks pretty... I wonder what outfit I could wear with it I mean it has blue and pink and orange but they are so bright and they are baby colors and I really have notihng that goes with it besides like one pair of pants and THOSE pants sag anyway and I don't even have a shirt that goes with them besides ONE but that one shirt is a bit small and the back part with the lace shrank anyway and like what is up with lace shrinking everything lacy-ish always shrinks and then the threads get all sticky and stringy and then TADA shirt ruined....

^ And I REALLY don't think people would want to read THAT sort of stuff every day. No, just no. But that only took me a second to come up with... now think of having that going on all day but each thought going on forever, never shutting up and never stopping and carrying on about EVERY. LAST. THING. It's fun at times, but more often than not it's extremely annoying. So, PLEASE: do me a favor and don't ask me to write about what's on my mind. I don't want to- and I don't want to for a reason.

Maddie

Apologies

I am sorry for not blogging yesterday! The reason for it is because... I was actually setting up another blog! That's right... ANOTHER. However, the new blog is not my usual blog- it is a family blog with my Dad and my sister! Each day of the week, there are three new posts out; one from me, one from my dad, and one from my sister. The posts can be however long or short we like depending on the topic we are discussing, and we can write about anything we want. We don't all have to blog about the same thing- in fact, it's better that we don't! The blog is a school project, but also a memory collection of sorts. Over the years, it will show the variation in all of our thoughts and how we each think about life. At the same time, it gets me and my sister used to writing more on a daily basis.

The new blog is already set up- there is a photos/vlogs page, a contact page and the regular blog. We have already all done 2 days worth of blog posts (yesterday and today) and will continue our posting on Monday of next week. If you like reading this blog, I can guaruntee you that you will like the new one too. Don't worry, just because I have a new blog does not mean that this one will be neglected- there will be daily posts here too. However, if you ever find yourself wanting to read posts NOT on this blog, please do check out Mountain Rants... it is just starting off, so all the views we can get is better.

In the end, though... while a lot of views is nice, I prefer just getting my feelings out of me. That is what I use blogging for... I could care less about my pageviews. Yes, it is nice to know that I have people who genuinely enjoy my writing and read more of it- but in the end, these posts are just my thoughts from day to day... nothing more. I'm glad you enjoy this blog :)

New blog is: www.mountainrants.weebly.com

Maddie

Poetry

Secret

Got a secret,
And I trust you,
So I'll tell it to you,
Can't tell
Anyone else
Promise you'll stay true
Got a secret,
Please do keep it
I'm putting my faith in you
If you tell it
I'll be angry
And you may get hurt
But for now
You are safe
And that scenario is just the worst

iHeart Radio

A few days ago, my Dad had me install a radio app for him on his iPad. I installed iHeart radio, since it was the first one that came up in the search results, and then quickly set up some classic rock stations for him. I have always disregarded radio apps because... why bother? I have a regular radio, so why would I need an app taking up even more storage space on my iPod? Well, after seeing how the app operates, I think I AM going to download it the next time I can access my iPod because it actually works very well. You don't get any advertisements off of stations you create yourself, you can connect to ANY radio station that is featured by the app no matter where your location, and it's free.

You DO have to create an account to save stations, or you can use your facebook account. It does not post publicly without your permission and does not show up on your public profile. I recommend it to anyone who likes music- you can tell it what bands, songs and genres you like and it will give you an ecclectic mix of songs based off your choices and the style of music you seem to like. Both Dad and I are pleased with the app's performance (it also doesn't take much room up on your device AND it doesn't drain battery).

If you get the app, let me know how you like it in the comments!

Maddie